game of life
I suddenly had this revelation about what the perfect job for me would be. Can you guess? I'll tell you anyway: a Korean drama writer!Note: NOT like an American soap opera writer. Korean series are more time-definitive, as in they'll end after a certain number of episodes, so you can actually have a real story without everyone sleeping with everyone else.
The heroine, of course, would be a type of anti-heroine. In Korean series, the bad girls always have the prettier clothes (well, not just clothes, they're usually prettier in general). Why is that? Is it some sort of Cinderella-complex? What is with the obsession with the plain Jane getting the Prince Charming? I think it just sets unrealistic expectations for ugly girls. As if it wasn't hard enough just being ugly; now Korean dramas are telling them "You too have a chance to find Mr. Right. Take a look at these ugly girls! The guys could see their inner beauty."
Or reworded: "If you don't get a guy, it isn't just because you're ugly. It's because you just suck overall."
But I guess hope is a good thing, and beauty really is subjective. That's why I love tabloids and those "STARS WITHOUT MAKEUP" articles. It's amazing what good hair/makeup/clothes can get you. I know a lot of people stick to the maxim that external beauty can't buy happiness, but I beg to differ. Maybe people would be a lot nicer if they felt better about themselves. I happen to know quite a few vindictive little bitches who are butt ugly (once again, subjective. I'm sure their mothers think they're adorable).
There's a million and one things I could get "done" on the surgeon's table. This is too bumpy or that is too fat or this isn't symmetrical with that. I've never had braces, and I don't think I ever will. Not to be sappy, but I like having an original smile, not a generic one. I didn't wear shorts all through high school because I didn't like my legs, and now I don't know what the big deal was.
And it's not because I lost weight, and it's not because I gained some new outlook. It's all about knowing what to wear. I don't wear 7s because they make my ass look too big. I don't wear miniskirts because my thighs look too bulky. I stick to what I know will look good on me, and not on the girl or mannequin I see in the store.
It's also another reason why I've started reading Asian fashion magazines as opposed to American ones. Obviously, I'm not going to look the same in a top that a 34DD model is wearing. But in Asian magazines, I at least get to see modest 32B's in blouses who play up other parts of their body. Mainly hair, actually. If only I knew how to do hair like they do (there're instructions in the back, but they're in Chinese, and I'm illiterate).
So in THIS sense, I guess beauty does come from within. It's not just genetics, or diet, or outlook; it's about knowing what's right and wrong for you and what you feel comfortable looking like. But this leads me to another point: personally, I like having short hair. It makes me look more mature, and it's a lot easier to take care of. However, my family and my boyfriend prefer seeing me with long hair because it's better for my face shape. Now, they have to look at me more than I do. So I keep my hair long, even when I prefer to have it short. So does that really count as betraying my own interests? Or is it just a matter of subjective beauty?
I know I've been sounding a bit trite in my entries lately. The only justification I have is that I spend most of my time with the profound: close-reading, comparing, finding the meaning of this behind the meaning of that. I don't want to analyze my life the way I analyze the books I read for English. So in a way, I guess I'm an "untrustworthy narrator" in the sense that I'm only revealing the side of me that's least tiring for me to talk about. But to have a moment of pure honesty, sometimes I get scared right before I look in the mirror.
posted by Tiffany @ 12:15 AM
2 Comments:
blissfully meta!
thai soaps are time sensitive too! whenever I go to thailand, that's all there is on tv, and that's all my brother and I watch. it's wonderful!
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